so winter break has been great so far! i've hung out w/my pb boys every day almost. except for when rick got a kidney stone... i stayed with him through that. i took him to new york the day after christmas which was soooo much fun!!! it had been so long since I've been to NYC and we loved it. we stayed at the amsterdam court hotel (here's a pic). it was right off of broadway so we were right near everything. the walked around everywhere. and we ate dinner at planet hollywood which was sweet. the piano from the movie Big was on the wall there. . . i got to touch the piano that Tom Hanks danced on. hahaha and we walked in central park that night and it was snowing and it was very sweet. something i will never forget. New Years was fun too. We all went to Brian's and we had a blast. Joy and I kicked but playing pong, we were oh so proud. Betsy got a little sick thouh....haha she's my little whisky girl. right bets?? haha I'm trying to think of other major events that are ok to tell.... hmmm ... oh i went snowboarding this weekend with the boys. it was awesome. i fell a lot but i still had fun. I also got this mad cut on my arm. I was proud of my  "battle wounds". Scotty G and I got tackled. That sucked. and i think I speak for us all when i say that boarding makes you very sore. But it's a good workout though, and always fun times. I have pics I'll be putting up soon of new years and new york and what not. but anyways, I'm going to go. I'm at Richard's college right now waiting for him to get out of class. I still have an hour but I'm hungry so I think breakfast is calling me. later  

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so i'm really frustrated with a ton of things right now. i dont understand how some people can be so rude and self involved and only think about themselves. i'm so sick of being the nice one that lets people just walk all over me. I feel like I don't want to be nice to some people because if I am, they take advantage of me. I dont know what to do. If I stand up for myself I might risk people being mad at me, and I'm not sure why that bothers me so much but it does. I can't stand to think that someone might be upset with me or think less of me. I'm not an agressive person but I can only take so much crap. This constant stress is really getting to me as well. I mean I work, I have school, I have family, I have money stress and I can only take so much other crap before I break down. sorry to be such a complainer, but I just think I've had a rough day... i'm going to go finish packing so that I can get out of here. I'm going to see Richard tomorrow for the first time in close to 3 weeks!! I can't wait to see him!! Have a good thanks giving everyone! later

today seems sorta glum, it's raining and that's how it's going to be cold, and rainy. i just got back from betsy's dorm. we had a movie nite last nite. . . me betsy and mindy. it was fun and good to hang out with Philly. She's been Guamin' lately. haha but anyways, this week has been pretty good. I got a job!!! yay! i'm so relieved. I hate not having money or not being able to support myself. I'm working at Potbelly deli so those of you who know where Fairfax Corner is, come visit. I start monday! I've gotten all my work done this week and stuff and it hasn't been too stressful. I found out that my dad is still paying child support for some reason so I'm using that account to pay for my college. My mom is doing better, she's getting the artificial simulator put in soon so she should be walking soon and back to work. Thank God! My little sis is growing up so much. Just hearing how she's so active in school and helps out so much is a blessing. I never thought about how fast people can mature. My brother still doesn't care about me so that's nothing new... hmm what else?? oh haha richard left me a message calling me allie. At first I was like, that's messed up, but I knew it was a complete accident so I just laughed and i knew he felt bad so it was just a funny situation. I'm glad that we can laugh about stuff like that and not fight about it. I can't really see us ever getting into fights. Good thing too. I dont need that extra stress and I think that's one of the reasons I like being his girlfriend so much, it's not extra stress. Anyways, not much else to update on. Besides i'm mad at seth for not calling me because he had no idea what's goin on in my life right now and I feel like a "best friend" should be there any time. Now it's, "when I have time and when I'm not with my girlfriend" I talk to Adam more than I do seth. Best friends don't wait until they have time, they make time. enough said about that. I need to go get stuff done. Later

p.s. greg, ebersole, and mark are visiting tonight! i'm so excited!

So Richard came to visit this weekend. Even though his visit was short, it was fun. Friday night when he got here I took him to BunnyMan's bridge so he could see it since Steph and I told him so much about it. Then we went to find a partk and I got to swing and then we walked this trail. Then we ate at this Mexican resturaunt named Anita's. We came back after that and walked around the campus and I showed him the pond and stuff. Ok, but here's the good news... so we were layin on my bunk watchin tv and he got this smile on his face and wouldn't tell me why...and then after a few minutes he asked me out. So now it's official, the whole boyfriend girlfriend thing.  I know he wouldn't have asked if he wasn't sure, and considering the fact that we've been hanging out since the beginning of august and he's just now asking, It's a big deal. And i'm excited. . . but i'll stop talkin about the cute stuff. haha but anyways, big week ahead. lots of school work and stuff. I'm bracing myself for it. I'm waiting to hear back from this lady about a job. pray that i get it! i'm pooorr!! ha i need a job so bad. but anyways gotta go do some running and then get my homework done. later.   

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